Farmers market

My mom recently moved to a very cute, small town in Idaho. It reminded me of Stars Hollow from Gilmore Girls. So when the farmers market came to town we felt like Loreai and Rory. Luckily, I had my favorite sundress on hand. With that, I was ready for the perfect weather. I'm pretty sure I wore out this dress over the summer. It's so breezy, simple, and of course floral. A summer sun dress is a must have for the hot weather.

I love summer days

Outfit breakdown: dress&necklace- Forever 21 shoes&shades- Target

Fearless

When it comes to this topic it doesn't matter how much money you make or what clothes you wear. If I've learned anything this past summer, it's that life doesn't care who you are or where you're at when it throws something your way. The past three months I've gone through the biggest changes I've ever experienced. Needless to say, I'm tired, stressed, and fearful. As time has gone past since graduation, my experience as a "real" adult haven't been ideal. Through my car accident and becoming the sickest I've ever been, I can only grow. Through being the first to pick up everything to move to a new state, I can only become stronger. Through losing what I thought was the most critical part of my life I could only learn to be resilient.

When I hit a breaking point I thought to myself, "When did I become so fearful?" I never recall letting negative thoughts creep into my life as if they were true. Just because I am moving to a new state doesn't mean life won't happen for me. It only means I can become a mature adult faster. I look at other students my age and feel sorry for some.

This may be the scariest and loneliest point in my life so far. However, my growth, strength, and resilience is turning me into the adult I'm supposed to be faster. I guaranteed I am never going to apologize for being stressed out during this time in my life. I'm discovering who I am and that's hard. With that, I'll always praise God for the people in my life who will stick by me. Friends who accept me in all circumstances while having my back when I don't seem myself. Family who support me even when I'm angry, confused, and hurt. Writing, reading, and exercising more that makes me feel healed. Church family who constantly checks in on me and tells me keep my head high. More importantly, a God who knows I am worth it. Worth it to die for and work in and around my life. I'm going to be just fine because with these things in mind I'm fearless.
As of today, I don't worry anymore. I don't worry if I'll meet the right person. I don't worry about starting my life over in Colorado. There is nothing to worry about. So with no worry comes no stress and with no stress is no fear. I'm fearless. I'll embrace every moment of loneliness, hurt, joy, pain, and praise. On top of that, this past week I really learned that even one of the most important people in your life can let you down. Even when that happens, I won't let it stop me. I have to pick myself back up and keep going. What other choice do I have? I will never let life get me down; there's no reason for it!

I'm reminded of this: "So you have sorrow now, but I will see you again; then you will rejoice, and no one can rob you of that joy." - John 16:22. My final question is this--Is that all you got? That's nothing, life! Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life and I'm fearless.

How to bake with boys

The other day I tried a recipe for whoopie pies and this post should have been called how to make whoopie pies. However, I asked to my two best guy friends to come over and help me. Now I've learned that baking with boys is a whole, new job on it's own. They get confused, lazy and sometimes overly excited. Nevertheless, the dessert turned out really well and they seemed to enjoy themselves.

We no speak mexicano

My favorite part of vacations is dressing up for it. For the reason that you don't have to actually dress up. While spending the majority of my time down in Mexico shopping and sight seeing meant I would be out in the heat. With that, I found a beautiful, breezy maxi dress at work that would be perfect to keep me cool while walking around. Adding a crop top and fun accessories helped with my relaxed feel as I strolled the streets of Guadalajara.

Outfit Breakdown: dress, shirt, necklace-Forever21 shoes and hat-Urban Outfitters bag- Target

To the fearless father, the strong step dad and the ones not related

Seven years ago at my dad's wedding

I remember a time when I was about eight my sister came to visit my dad and I. When we went out to dinner the balloon man at the restaurant made each of us a giant hat. However, that same night when we rented a movie my dad wore this hat into the Blockbuster. It was my first memory of my fearless father. From then on he would constantly tell jokes to strangers, come to my elementary school to do magic shows and do stand up numbers at the dinner table. The night before I went skydiving, my dad told me he wished he could be right there next to me as I took that leap. Through our rocky relationship, my dad always taught me to be fearless. With every worry I've ever had, my dad has comforted me by the fact if I were to fail or fall short that life goes on. He, most importantly, taught me that there's never anything to fear. I will always remember my dad saying that he daily goal is to make someone day and this positive, fearless attitude is what I'll keep close to my heart. 

Four months ago at my mom's wedding

My step dad is a man who I am proud to introduce to everyone in my life. His spirit for adventure and protective nature is just a few attributes that I admire about him. Most importantly, the way he loves God, his family and others makes me honored to be his step daughter.

One month ago at graduation

This picture shows just some out of the many male leaders at my church who have been a father type role model in my life. Each leader at my church has been such a powerful influence in my life. Supporting me by always looking out for my best interest, protecting me by hunting down any boy that broke my heart and guiding me by giving me the best advice in all areas of my life. I am really thankful for all the dads in my life.